Little Paper Planes

My wall.

2008-10-19T06:09:00.000-07:00

A while ago a friend of mine who posts on Intimate Vignettes asked me to post up what i had on my walls.. at the time i had nothing at all except one poster on one wall but after a couple of weeks, ive realized that ive been obsessed with lists and notes and writting things down in general. whether it be important or not... then ill stick them up on my wall with blu-tack and ill leave them there. till i realize that they are out of date, which is usually a couple days at a time but in those couple days i would have put net ones up so even tho i take some down, its just as hectic as when it started.....

Delicious!

2008-09-23T06:53:00.001-07:00

Cooking for one on a budget can be hard sometimes but i came up with something from scratch which is ridiculusly good! i wish i had my camera so i could take a photo of it its that good.

Chicken and Corn Soup :)

Ingredients:

Stock:
2 Chicken Drumsticks ($3 for 3 at safers!)
1 onion sliced in half w/ skin
2 whole garlic cloves w/ skin
salt
pepper

Soup:
Stock
kernels from 1 fresh sweet corn
small garlic clove finely chopped
1/2 onion finely chopped
spaghettini pasta broken into 3cm pieces
dried oregano

Directions:
1. in a pot boil 4 cups of water and throw in the ingredients for the stock, simmer for 15 minutes and take out the onion and garlic and then simmer for another 20 minutes until chicken is tender.
2. put the stock aside and take out the chicken.
3. take the chicken off the bone and cut into bite size pieces.
4. in seperate pot, combine 1 cup chicken stock and 1 cup of water, add enough corn kernels and chicken pieces for one person. simmer for 3-4 minutes and then add spaghettini pieces, simmer for another 2 minutes, add a little dried oregano and then its done!! but you might need to add some salt and pepper in the end. maybe.

the left over stock can be stored in the fridge and the chicken pieces and uncooked corn can be put in the fridge too. it makes it an easy option for a quick lunch cuz all u have to do is put it together!

i guess you could make it with stock from the supermarket but i like to make everything from scratch :)
i enjoy cooking. hehe.

well, i hope someone tries this recipe, it'll put a smile on my face.

i totaled the cost and it came up to about 3 dollars a meal since it makes about 3 meals, maybe 4! you cant really get cheaper than that for a pretty healthy meal! and its pretty filling aswell!

ENJOY :)

This is how i feel

2008-09-23T06:25:00.000-07:00

i found them

2008-09-23T06:03:00.000-07:00

Klaus

2008-09-11T23:51:00.001-07:00

Pink Cricket

2008-08-24T08:10:00.000-07:00

another bump in the road

2008-08-20T04:43:00.000-07:00

i confuse myself. i dont know what i think or feel sometimes, sometimes my feelings get clouded by what i think and other times my thoughts get clouded by what i feel. It makes me run in circles, but im not chasing my tail, something i know that is there but cant reach. i dont know what im looking for. how can i say im looking for myself when I know who i am. im that person. the person running in circles. thats me.

Letting people see my feelings, telling them face to face what i think and what i feel isnt something im good at nor do i think i will ever be good at it. confrontation. confrontation. i dont like being transparant.

If i were anything other than human i think i would be a blade of grass. Just there, in the midst of everything else. unimportant, just THERE. thats what i would like it be. but then again, i dont knw cuz if im in one place for too long i become insane. insane.

red.

Big-World Crazy-Love

2008-08-14T04:46:00.000-07:00

Going through laundry. i forgot i ever had this. A little ironic...

It was a good day to fake a sickie

2008-08-14T03:51:00.000-07:00

Deciding to put the alarm on snooze 17 times this morning didnt turn out to be such a bad thing. it was a nice day out. I might have missed 2 classes but thats alright, ive got time to catch up..
I took the day to go out and do some things, they werent too exciting, paying bills and going to the back is never exciting. But before that, i decided to go to Etienne's house, I wanted to drop off something i bought for him when we were together, I left it at his doorstep cuz i know no one lives there right now, but he will be back in a couple days or so. i dont know what he will think of it but its just my thank you to him.. walking back from his house i saw a swing, the bank and the bills could wait so i just jumped on it. not literally but you know what i mean. it was a good idea.

The Melbourne Underground and Lists

2008-08-13T02:08:00.000-07:00

Im really getting into the Melbourne culture, being in a new city, you want to know everything about it! i came accross a website today, http://undergroundmelbourne.wordpress.com/, its a lot like threethousand in a sense that it tells you about small scale and alternative mentionables. I made myself a list of things to do in Melbourne, i know i still have until the end of next year but i want to go to as many places and see as many things as i can with the time i have! My list is still short and all i have on it right now is "Go to the bookshop on 361 sydney rd, Brunswick". I have no idea what the bookshop is called but i know its small and discreet! which will make it even harder to find.

Ive also made a list of things to buy (with the money i dont have.. (yet)...), i need to get a new pair of boots and a hair straightener. I totaled my boots last week, theres a big hole right near where the sole is, i didnt realize until my toes started to feel a little colder than usual one day.

I think im obsessed with lists. I make a whole lot of them. but then again, who isnt obsessed with lists? we use them to go to the store, we use them when we need to jot down what we have to do for the day, we right down do's and don'ts, new year resolutions.. what would life be without lists? i think i want to know what thats like. maybe when i retire and dont have to worry about anything. that will be the day.

Dragonfly Sketch

2008-08-13T00:59:00.000-07:00

Sketch of a dragonfly and parts of the dragonfly i made last semester, got 100 out of 100 so that was good. I can definitely say that it is the thing im most proud of from last semester's work. Im going to get a big tattoo in a couple years time, or maybe even at the end of the year and I think i know what i want now...

I dont know why the second drawing wont enlarge when u press it... and i dont know how to fix it :(

Goodbye

2008-08-12T04:55:00.001-07:00

threethousand

2008-08-05T07:24:00.000-07:00

for you melbourne dwellers who want to know more about melbourne sub-culture and get your hands on little treasures and hunt down little rickety shops selling things none others do go to http://www.threethousand.com.au/
(http://www.twothousand.com.au/ for yous in sydney).

u can subscribe to their e-newsletters, they tell you about whats happening in melbourne under the radar, little exhibitions, indie concerts, indie books, indie movies, anything not really in the popular mainstream like everything else. its pretty useful if youre like me and you find that you and your friends get sick of the same old things on the weekends.
(although last weekend was pretty interesting, me and a couple of friends upped the bottoms of a little more than a dozen glasses of wine and decided to put on wild make up and go walking down the streets of south yarra. THAT was interesting.)

but yea, threethousand will most likely liven up your weekends. have fun.

nonchalant

2008-08-05T07:16:00.000-07:00

Casually calm and relaxed; Indifferent; unconcerned; behaving as if detached

David Shrigley

2008-07-31T02:35:00.000-07:00

Davd Shrigley
http://www.davidshrigley.com/

Denis Darzacq

2008-07-30T23:16:00.000-07:00

http://denis.darzacq.revue.com/

another bum related story

2008-07-30T06:56:00.000-07:00

to quote Peter Helliar from Rove..

"I love those little drawings on toilet paper, i just hope the artist doesnt get offended when i whipe my shithole with it."

hmm

2008-07-30T06:27:00.000-07:00

1. where is your cell phone? hmm... coat or bag.
2. your significant other? who knows.
3. your hair? coloured
4. your daughter? not born
5. your son? not born either
6. your favorite thing? change.
7. your dream last night? indo food.
8. your favorite drink? tequila
9. your goal? to live. happily.
10. the room you're in? my whole apartment!
11. your church? dont go to church.
12. your fear? frogs. dont u dare!
13. where do you want to be in 6 years? lala land.
14. where were you last night? sadly enough, at home.
15. what you're not? careful.
16. muffins? no thanx.
17. one of your wish-list items? MONEY
18. where you grew up? bali
19. the last thing you did? light a cigarette
20. what are you wearing? pyjama pants and rolling stones t shirt
21. your TV? sucks.
22. your pets? in bali
23. your computer? fucking up
24. your life? rocky
25. your mood? disappointed
26. missing someone? little bit
27. your car? what car?
28. something your not wearing? bra.
29. favorite store? danger field
30. your summer? on the way
31. like(love) someone? i think so.
32. your favorite color? red red red
33. last time you laughed? today
34. last time you cried? last week, wednesday.
35. who will repost this? probably no one.

today....

2008-07-30T06:05:00.001-07:00

kaka

moving along

2008-07-30T04:05:00.000-07:00

OK, here we go...

in the past 3 months,, ive gotten a new tattoo, a tounge piercing and now im about to go dye my hair, "Light Ash Blonde", hmm hmm hmmm.... identity crisis? just might be.
thats alright, im accepting it. im accepting change and everything that comes with it..

lets see where it takes me.

watch me make a fool out of myself

2008-07-25T01:33:00.000-07:00

friday night, at home, what to do?

its one of those times to have a laugh at yourself! c'mon!! we all do it!

Am i?

2008-07-24T23:06:00.001-07:00

Brett Dennen... doesnt look like what his voice makes you picture.. none the less, he is incredible. this song is something that i can picture perfect when your in a hammock, looking out to your garden with a drink in your hand, sun shining, breeze blowing, all those things that make up a relaxing scenery.. i love it. dont think it suits the situation at the moment, but still a great song to listen to and pretend that its true.

long weekend ahead... tounge pierce on saturday, probably go drinking tonight... sunday is free for whatever i need to get dont and monday is off to the city to run some errands, somewhere in between i have to take time to go jogging for atleast 30 minutes a day. i planned out my week, made a calendar and put notes on it for the whole week, didnt go as planned. what was supposed to be 4 days of jogging became only one. i have to get onto that.

the plan is ill go every saturday, sunday and monday from 5.30 to 6, when its just getting dark and no one can really see you sweating and panting down the street.
street route: glenferrie, christoble, kinkora, hawthorn, kinkora, chistoble, glenferrie, home. done!

okay, im going to go back to mindless nothing right now since i dont know what else to write jazz.

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz

2008-07-21T11:11:00.001-07:00

to sleep? or not to sleep?
what is the conclusion to this late night cliff-hanger of an escapade!
tell me sandmannnnn

pigeon

2008-07-21T11:02:00.000-07:00

stop eating people's old french fries pigeon! have some self respect!
dont you know you can fly!

whoah

2008-07-21T10:21:00.000-07:00

hmmm...dont you hate it when ur in one kind of mood, in this case, an unexplainable mood, and you put a song on that suits ur mood, not knowing that ur itunes is on shuffle, then it changes to a song like.... I WANT TO RIDE MY BICYCLE! I WANT TO RIDE MY BIKE!!!!

really, it ruins the mood, makes u feel even more shittier than you felt before, like, i dont fucking love my bike. fuck that.

i just got a letter, a very long one at that.
it hurt, but im suprisingly dealing with it very very very well. nothing has been smashed, i didnt break anything, i didnt go and buy alcohol, i didnt smoke a shit load of cigarettes. maybe ive been expecting it? maybe i have..
i mean, i always had a feeling. i just never said anything, i never questioned it.. i never confronted it.

hmm... love's strange... it really is.... maybe its because i have been in his situation... very recently... i know how it feels. i just never told. i keep a lot of thing to myself.
like right now, i dont know who you are who is reading this cuz u dont really know whats happeneing, and that makes me not really care.... hmm....

she reaches for a cigarette, lights it, and goes back to writing

no she doesnt. she wanders and asks why the fuck she is writing this

Pause

2008-07-21T10:19:00.001-07:00

love is a strange thing.
so is he.

hello me

2008-07-08T11:50:00.000-07:00

running away. opposite directions. seeking what? that way. this way. no way. come back? stay put? speed up? slow down? take me with you. yet let me go. let me think of things other than this. up. down. confusion. left. right. more confusion. say it. say what i want to hear. say it if you mean it. if you dont, make me run. run fast. away from this dead land. i want to come back. but for what? something that will never falter? something that will last forever? something i know not of. help me forget. help me remember. i want to remember yet to forget is what is right. help. step out of the room. take another step. dont stop. you need no more of this. move forward. dont linger. why linger? no use. i cant tell myself whats wrong or whats right. i know im lost. no direction is clear enough to follow. where will i end up? in the land of promises? there is no such thing. promises are broken. always have been. always will be. pesimistic fuck. when will you realize. realize what you are doing and what you have done. dont play around. others can get affected by you you know. selfish bastard. why do you keep doing the things you know are wrong. decisions were never easy. why have one when you can have all. why have all when u can have one. why choose. why do you do this. why the drama you really can avoid? why do you have to be so stubborn. stubborn. stubborn. stubborn. think straight!
what do you want?

Take it all away

2008-07-08T11:34:00.000-07:00

i remember, just last summer.
silently speaking, speaking of meaning.
admitting feelings growing fond

I remember, just last spring,
a bite, a kiss.
something.
not only does my mind rekindle memories
but feelings and hope for more

though i know, when winter passes
you wont be coming back

my wants and needs will not be met
you are the smart one.
a broken heart will mend
but with time, and tears.

running in circles,
coming back,
here in this dead land,
heart beating fast,
sweet sensations lasting no longer than a sunset.

I wont be coming back
to take back your hand
to smile into the life i thought would be

things fly on their own or with another.

i fly.
away.

all that and a bit more !

2008-07-07T12:23:00.001-07:00

it turned out just the way i expected. i would put all my photos up but some are just way too incriminating and insanely fucked up.

there isnt any other way to put it

the first glass of wine at Rustique

Tequila number 9 at Loca

Arya - Vodka Ice Box

Floating

Haggered but still goin strong!

trust me, it didnt stop.

aaaah u can just see the progression in the photos.
where it lead to was, hillarious crack ups, more progresseed photos shall i say.

All of that made it a wickid weekend. jakarta is definitely a good place to party, putting aside the ridiculus prices. of everything.

I can see myself there again, for sure.

I owe so much to arthur and chris, they've really made my holiday.
thank you thank you
WE THREE MAKE HISTORY!

Those photos weren't from one night only, it was from 2 days and 2 nights of full on no sleep, only drinking ++ and going crazy. you should have seen the bags under my eyes.

it was all worth it though.

i must say my weekend has been,
"all that and a bit more" -Rene

Jakarta

2008-07-02T22:09:00.000-07:00

im leaving tonight, im expecting, a wild wild weekend.... something along the lines of this:

Runny Bunny

2008-07-01T10:23:00.000-07:00

image by reneefrench at deviantart.com

if you see a little bunny

and its nose is kinda runny

don't think its funny

cuz itsnot!

Colourful Language

2008-07-01T10:07:00.000-07:00

I love this site but i dont seem to find the time to upload every week, ph.otogra.ph
i know its a funny looking web address but it is what it is. and quite unique actually. its a site where they will give you a theme each week, for instance "colourful"so, you've got a week to go around and take photos of things that represent that theme, whether its a direct translation or not or its a manipulated photograph or just purely a photograph, its really up to you. it isnt the most popular site i think it only has a few hundred or thousand members but its actually quite interesting.anyways, since my mood has been lifted in the past few days, i looked in their archives and came accross the theme colourful they had a few months back. and i got these images, they just really reflect the mood im in the and state im in so i thought i would share a few more images . ..

Im going on a trip on thrusday to the captial, Jakarta, and ive never been there before. im going to see my brother and a few friends for 4 days, it shoulad be a laugh. im quite excited..
besides that i just wana say something else, something that has nothing to do with colour, BUT it was pretty funny. since i speak two languages, i kinda speak to my other friends who also speak to languages, in both english and indonesian... in one sentence.. confusing yea but it works. hehe.anyways, ive found that that kinda makes my english and indonesian pretty crap on their own, i was on the phone to my brother and ment to say "ill call you when im home", but instead, the muddled english came up and i said, "ill call you when im house!". i dont think he caught it but i had a little giggle at myself when i hung up :P

artsy fartsy

2008-06-30T23:00:00.000-07:00

was looking through my deviantart account, came accross these two in my favorites folder.. though i would share.. ive always been into watercolour-type, whimsical paintings..

the balloon one reminds me of one i did last year ill share that with you folks too..

Inkage!

2008-06-30T22:25:00.001-07:00

its done!a free tattoo, why not.

i like it.

This one i got last year on November 1st, doesnt have any meaning but i dont think all tattoos have to have meaning, if it looks good and u like it and u wana get it, then why not.

I got this design from the case of a Balinese sword.. this is the original image, the isnt too good cuz its from a camera phone but its what i got..

is it everything that was, is, or can yet be.

2008-06-30T10:41:00.000-07:00

Im getting a tattoo tomorrow, nothing anyone can see right away, something i can still hide if i wanted to. Its a common symbol, but i now know why it is so popular. i never really understood its meaning until the other day when i read it in a book.
Many people think that Hindus do not believe in ONE god, they do. they just believe that that god may appear to humans in multiple names and forms, thus the numerous gods.
The symbol AUM or Om is a symbol that represents God or Brahman, "the impersonal Absolute of Hinduism — omnipotent, omnipresent, and the source of all manifest existence. Brahman, in itself, is incomprehensible; so a symbol becomes mandatory to help us realize the Unknowable."

"Om provides a dualistic viewpoint. On one hand, it projects the mind beyond the immediate to what is abstract and inexpressible. On the other hand, it makes the absolute more tangible and comprehensive. It encompasses all potentialities and possibilities; it is everything that was, is, or can yet be. It is omnipotent and likewise remains undefined."

Im trying to find my way around life, im not saying getting this as a tattoo will solve my problems, i just want it to be there to remind me that there is something higher than me something that can give me guidance and make me think about the possibilities I have in life.

I wasnt brought up a Hindu nor would i call myself one now but my stepfather is, weve gone to the temple to pray many times even though he knows i dont fully understand the religion yet. but i want to learn.

Im getting the tattoo on the top of my neck behind my ear, in black and gray,

i dont have to see it for me to be reminded, as long as it is there i'll know how to process my thoughts better i think,

from a loved one.

2008-06-28T04:50:00.001-07:00

the smell of a rose
the sound of a band
the taste of a fruit
the touch of a hand
the simple joys of life are there
but don't compare to my love's stare

travels are fun
and full of delight
the marvelous things
we see with our sight
but nothing will look as special to me
as looking at you and knowing I'm free

Live,
live for what u might say
for the joy u bring the day
for when you're smiling i smile too
one love one life and forever be true

thank you etienne . . .

Rainbow

2008-06-26T09:52:00.000-07:00

things are no longer black and white, thank you sun.

Whipee! Pantone Mugs

2008-06-25T11:57:00.000-07:00

Couldn't seem to turn away from a website i found.
its 3am and im still lookin through http://www.threethousand.com.au/.
Since melbourne is oh-so-new to me, i was intereseted to know just what was out there. and what do i find? pantone mugs! Give me a reason not to entice your eyeballs in PMS 043C while you have that cup of coffee.

$19.95 at NGV International down in St. Kilda!
I want one for how boring they are.

Makes me think of you

2008-06-25T10:59:00.001-07:00

Top of the World

2008-06-25T09:53:00.000-07:00

a climb to the top is never too far,

each step brings a new perspective,

each breath brings you closer to what you long for.

dont stop for the sunrise can wait

why stop when you're in this state . . .

***

Unfinished Business

2008-06-25T07:51:00.000-07:00

Just give me a second, darling, to clear my head
Just put down those scissors, baby On the single bed
The sand in the hour glass is running low
I came through thunder, the cold, wind, the rain and the snow
To find you awake by your window sill
A sight for sore eyes, and a view to kill
I broke down in horror at you standing there
The glow from the moon shone through cracks in your hair
I shouted with passion “ I love you so much”
But feeling my skin, it was cold to the touch
You whispered where are you? I questioned your doubt
But soon realised you were talking to God now

You got blood your hands And I know it’s mine
I just need more time
So get of your low, let’s dance like we used to
But there’s a light in the distance, waiting for me I will wait for you
So get of your low, let’s kiss like we used to

I looked in the mirror, but something was wrong
I saw you behind, but my reflection was gone
There was smoke in the fireplace as white as the snow
A voice then come gently “It’s your time to go”
That record you played, as you beg for forgiveness
“Don’t touch me” I screamed I’ve got unfinished business

You got blood your hands And I know it’s mine
I just need more time
So get of your low, let’s dance like we used to
But there’s a light in the distance, waiting for me I will wait for you
So get of your low, let’s kiss like we used to

You got blood your hands And I know it’s mine
I just need more time
So get of your low, let’s dance like we used to
But there’s a light in the distance, waiting for me I will wait for you
So get of your low, let’s kiss like we used to

Sorrow

2008-06-24T22:38:00.001-07:00

Im not a believer in any specific religion but forgive me God for I have sinned.

Though I try to hide it, its clear.

2008-06-23T06:33:00.000-07:00

After an episode of tears and silent screams last night ive learnt that i shouldnt spend too much time on my own. mind you, i still feel the same, i just have to keep myself busy to help me take my mind off the fact that im here and he's there. .

but enough of that. . . i have to keep my mind from wandering.

I stumbled accross the word Knick Knackery today, i really like it. Small ornaments, not worth much, but things we still subconsciously need to entice our intangible little minds.

a Blank Canvas

2008-06-23T05:55:00.001-07:00

spilling my thoughts and sharing my interests
to those who might or might not be there.