hello me

running away. opposite directions. seeking what? that way. this way. no way. come back? stay put? speed up? slow down? take me with you. yet let me go. let me think of things other than this. up. down. confusion. left. right. more confusion. say it. say what i want to hear. say it if you mean it. if you dont, make me run. run fast. away from this dead land. i want to come back. but for what? something that will never falter? something that will last forever? something i know not of. help me forget. help me remember. i want to remember yet to forget is what is right. help. step out of the room. take another step. dont stop. you need no more of this. move forward. dont linger. why linger? no use. i cant tell myself whats wrong or whats right. i know im lost. no direction is clear enough to follow. where will i end up? in the land of promises? there is no such thing. promises are broken. always have been. always will be. pesimistic fuck. when will you realize. realize what you are doing and what you have done. dont play around. others can get affected by you you know. selfish bastard. why do you keep doing the things you know are wrong. decisions were never easy. why have one when you can have all. why have all when u can have one. why choose. why do you do this. why the drama you really can avoid? why do you have to be so stubborn. stubborn. stubborn. stubborn. think straight!
what do you want?